It’s my workout and I’ll cry if I want to

I’ll be the first to admit I’m an emotional person. When I decided to do something, I commit fully. Because I invest myself so fully into things, I can get super upset at the littlest set back.

In college, I would get super upset if I couldn’t lift a weight. When trainers would tell me “you almost have it,” I would almost get more frustrated than if I wasn’t even close.

To this day, I still get frustrated when I can’t hit a PR or at least match what I did the time before.

Most of the male trainers at my gym, don’t understand the emotional investment I make. Most don’t get why a failure can cause me to cry.

He's not crying now, but he will be when that weight doesn't budge from the floor!

I’m not ashamed to admit that I cry. I have been known to cry if I can’t hit a new PR after training hard for months. I don’t half ass things. It doesn’t matter what it is – I want to do my best at it. Shoot even pool, which I suck at, I still want to win and will get mad if Ryan beats me!

I’m not saying this is the best way to behave…trust me, there are definitely some times when I wish I wouldn’t get so upset about a bad lift…BUT the point is, I’ve also accepted that this is who I am.

That’s not to say that I’m not working on things. It is much more rare now that I cry after a bad lift. I, most of the time, don’t sweat the small stuff. I remind myself that there are going to be bad days. I remind myself that while Ryan may beat me in pool, I can kick his butt in everything else. (Just kidding Ryan….sort of…)

But even though I remind myself of these things, I’m still an emotional and competitive person who WILL get upset when she doesn’t “succeed.”

Anyway, my point is, don’t be ashamed if you are an emotional person. Don’t let people make you feel bad for showing emotion when you don’t succeed.

And the truth is, if you invest yourself fully into something, there is good reason to be upset when you don’t succeed! Obviously, you don’t want to let your emotions run out of control, but the occasional cry after missing a PR is good for you!

Is it just me or does anyone else out there ever cry after not achieving one of their fitness/diet/exercise goals?

P.S. No I didn’t cry today, but trust me I can name some really great examples of times when I did. Shoot I probably even have some pictures from tennis when I would slap my thigh if I missed a shot. Not the best way to express my emotions….

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Posted on April 18, 2012, in Man Biceps, Uhm?, Workout and tagged , , , . Bookmark the permalink. 5 Comments.

  1. Thanks, Cori.

  2. I love this post! Thanks for saying this. As someone who cries easily, it’s nice to see I’m not the only one. I cry when I get frustrated, whether it’s from not making a PR or something else. Wallballs tend to make me panic as I get tired and lose my form, which can also make me want to cry. Any time I’m really going at 100% but still not doing as well as I want is a time I want to cry.

    And when I dropped a 45# bar on my shin, it made me burst into tears. Partially from embarrassment, partially from pain.

    My husband thinks that if something makes me cry, maybe I shouldn’t do it, but sometimes, if it makes me cry, that means it’s hard and I want to master it.

  3. I’ve never cried, but I will get super pissed. This weeekend I competed in a 100-yard swim race — it was the first leg of the Quad Games (It’s a swim, then a bike, then a run, then a XC ski race…spread out throughout the year, so you’re always training for an event).

    I had trained & went to a training clinic & tried to improve. I took 20 SECONDS off my swim time which is HUGE in swimming — that’s like minutes in running.

    BUT…then, I saw the results & compared myself to others and I was PISSED. My old boss who has 10 years on me, never exercises & has a bad liver, beat me by 30 seconds. My friend who just learned to swim last year beat me by 20 seconds!

    LIVID!

    Now, I’m hell bent on fixing my swim stroke by next spring.

    And…I”m already on the bike training for the next event (13-mile race) because DAMN, I’m mad now! šŸ™‚

    ~ Heather

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